Let go and Let God

Let go and let God. A beautiful phrase that I learned alot about when my son was in the throws of his heroin addiction. A beautiful phrase that I've yet to master. Maybe the reason for that is because in order to actually do that it needs to be more than a beautiful phrase, it needs to be an action. For me, in order to let go and let God you need to work to make God a daily presence in your life. You need to take time out every single day to connect with your creator. Whether it's to pray, to meditate, to create something you love or to be still and just listen. It doesn't matter what the tools are that you use as long as you make the effort to make the connection consistently. It's hard enough to let go of situations that are beyond our control, let alone give them up to a Higher Power that we have no relationship with. That would make no sense. So much about God doesn't make sense. I think that's why so many people struggle with their faith. Me personally, I go in and out of my relationship with God. I was raised a catholic but I haven't continued to embrace catholicism. I was in church with my son years ago and the priest made an announcement that prior to going downstairs for coffee and donuts, there was a petition he wanted us all to sign. The petition was in support of anti-abortion laws and I couldn't sign it. As we rounded the corner to head down the stairs my son reminded me that my signature was required and I told him I wasn't going to sign it, which of course led to a discussion as to why. I was happy to have that conversation with him but not so happy to bring him back. There have been times when I've been very involved with a church body and my connection with God always feels stronger to me when I am, but inevitably something happens like the petition or the last church I was involved with had a guest speaker who was highly regarded in the Christian faith and during his Sunday morning speech to us he referred to lesbians as witches. Needless to say, that didn't sit well with me and it wasn't long after that when I decided I didn't need to return. That was around the time that Mom died about a year and a half ago and I haven't been involved with a church since. When I'm not involved with a church group I tend to question my belief system and I drift slowly away from God but it usually leads me to some new place in my spirituality. Right now I'm in the wandering stage. Easter Sunday is coming up in a few weeks and I know last year I was very moved (as I shared with you) by the outdoor sunrise service at a local park. I think I'll attend again this year and see what comes of it. Let go and let God. Sometimes in life a situation arises where that's really your only alternative. You've said all you can say, you've done all you can do and it's not helped to create the outcome that your heart desires. Being on the outside looking in at a situation involving people you love wholeheartedly who are suffering and knowing you can't do a thing to ease the pain is one of the times when that beautiful phrase needs to be put into action. Let go and let God. Sometimes it's just so damn hard. xo, Carrie