Scattered

I can't seem to figure out what it is I want to say today. I had two dreams last night that were the type of dreams that you wake up from and thank your lucky stars you were just dreaming. In the first, my youngest was missing and in the second, my house was on fire. The details that I can recall are very clear and scary. I'm sure if I told my two friends who are very good at deciphering dreams, they'd be able to help me to understand them better, but honestly, I just don't feel like talking about them.

The snow is so beautiful today. It's that really wet kind that sticks to everything and makes you feel like you're living in a different land. My red cardinal came to the feeder and I felt like I was staring at a painting while watching him. It was a breathtaking picture. I thought maybe I'd write about the stillness. The kind of stillness that a day like today promotes, but honestly, I just don't know what I want to say about i,t other than to enjoy it. Really breathe it in because it's not often that life offers us this kind of stillness.

I just got back from bringing my youngest to go see the movie Percy Jackson and the Olympians - The Lightning Thief. It was a great movie about the son of the greek God Poseidon and a human. It was a reminder to me of how much I enjoyed Greek Mythology when I learned about it (and how much I've forgotten). It was full of action and incredible special effects and made me realize how much I miss make believe. I think adults need more make believe in their lives. Why should Halloween be the only time of the year we're allowed to dress up and assume an alter ego? No fair! Uh oh...I think I feel a theme party coming on...

I just got a call from a woman looking for daycare for a sixteen month old girl. I decided a few weeks ago that opening myself up to providing full time care again, rather than just before and after school care, would be incredibly helpful in resolving some of the stress I've been feeling about the state of the economy and the never ending pile of bills that we all have to deal with on an ongoing basis. I've already agreed to begin watching an eight week old in the next two months or so and need to evaluate how well I think I could provide care for a sixteen month old as well. I could write about how it never ceases to amaze me how quickly opportunity can arise once you open yourself up to the universe. Maybe that's where the saying, "Ask and you shall receive" comes from. Or maybe, "Be careful what you wish for"? No, I really don't feel like delving into that right now.

Anyway, my thoughts are scattered today, and I haven't given myself the opportunity to sit down and try to sort them out enough to know what I want to write, so I guess I'll just give myself permission to be scattered. Life is like that sometimes and that's okay. After all, isn't being scattered just another term for multi tasking? Maybe I'm more qualified for an office job than I give myself credit for!

xo,
Carrie