Restless

I'm not sure if it's the sun attempting to break through the clouds, or having entered the final countdown of winter, but man do I feel restless this morning! Restless like I want to get up and go somewhere. Any place that has NO sense of familiarity to it and everything feels new. A place where all of my senses would be commanded to be on alert because of that newness. New sights, new sounds, new smells, new architecture, new people that have no clue who I am or what I'm all about. A place where I wouldn't have the ability to close my eyes and still find my way from one destination to the next because I've been taking the same route my whole life long. Maybe I'd even allow myself to get lost! Getting lost is one of my hidden fears, so I avoid going places by myself where this is a possibility.

My cousin's daughter just did some traveling to various places around the country all by herself. Just her, her Civic Hybrid, her courage and her desire to connect with family and friends. God, how I admire that! A while ago my friend's daughter, who was in her twenties, traveled to Italy alone. I remember being in total awe of her when she did that. I can't fathom the idea of traveling all that way alone. I don't know if it stems from being the baby of seven children, but if it's one thing I wouldn't call myself, it's independent.

I don't know, maybe it's coming from the movie I watched yesterday called The September Issue. It was a documentary on Anna Wintour, the editor in chief at Vogue magazine. It painted a wonderful picture of what life is like in the fashion world. While it showcased some of the down sides, like the discouragement one feels when their creative vision is thrown to the curb, or the exaustion that comes with trying to meet deadlines, or the fierce competition that's out there among designers, what I took away from the movie is that the fashion industry is a fun, exciting, fast paced, delicious world to be in. Imagine...Rome, Paris and London all being in your job description. Not to mention the clothes!! And the shoes...UGH, let's not even go there.

That's the life I wish I was waking up to this morning (and I wouldn't need to worry about getting lost because I'd have a driver!). All I can say is it's a good thing I don't own a Nordstrom's credit card or my debt would have sky rocketed today.

Back to reality (sigh), time to go tackle the mound of dishes waiting for me in the sink. Then it's shower time, off to comfort a client who I have a feeling might be hospitalized today, back home to pick up kids, dinner and then bed.

No, I can't imagine what's causing this restlessness. All I can say is I really hope the sun wins it's battle with the clouds today.

xo,
Carrie